Thursday, April 17, 2014

Desire

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Last night I was a dinner party hosted by one of the consultants at his lovely home.   Most of my colleagues at the same...
Sunday, April 13, 2014

No such thing as perfect

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"Who's the cute baby?" "She mine...with my ex. She's 9 months" "She's got your dimples and your gi...
Monday, April 07, 2014

Wolverine sings?

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Sunday, April 06, 2014

You've got 6 more minutes

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"You need the 14 right?" "Yep- ah, there's one in 14 minutes" "Hmm...what can we do in 14 minutes?" he...
Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Photographs

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I've deleted all but one pictures of him from my phone. There is such a finality to it. Seeing him; us, and wondering why, why? Did i ...

Playlist

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When I start getting better and not all my posts are about how my wretched broken heart is suffering etc I will compile a breakup playlist. ...
Monday, February 24, 2014

Anggun

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I always loved Anggun- she epitomises Malay beauty; the bronzed skin, dark hair and an innate elegance. I love that she speaks french and da...
Sunday, February 23, 2014

I spent the day crying at intervals

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This heartbreak thing is EPIC. The pain is visceral, my thoughts obsessional and irrational. Everything reminds me of him and by extension...

Blur's No Distance Left to Run

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It's over  You don't need to tell me  I hope you're with someone who makes you feel safe in your sleeping tonight  I won...

Tonight I write the hardest words

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Today I spent the day missing you. I missed the warmth of you in bed, lying next to you. The scent, the taste of your kisses. That simple ...

This was what happened the weekend after our trip.

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Against all good advice I went to see him yesterday. Initially it was lunch that became a shopping trip and became night in with ribs and H...
Wednesday, February 05, 2014

Can't remember to forget you

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Whoever wrote this song, genius. Whoever came up with the tune; thank you for making what is a very sad, desperate situation into a super...
Sunday, February 02, 2014

I remember the first time you said 'love'.

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'Why is he (Capt Kirk) climbing the mountain?- Because he's in love' I asked you why kissing you feels so good- you tell me it...
Friday, January 17, 2014

False promises

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I hereby promise to resist to the best of my ability Internet stalking, googling and thinking about his other women. The exes, the lost love...

I really need to give up. Concede. Back out with some semblance of pride intact.

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In a moment of weakness, I think that if I tried hard enough I could beat her. She is now the bogeyman, the enemy, the challenge to overcom...

New resolution: add on.

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I will henceforth document all fun stuff I do. Even if it is mundane. Backtrack for january. Went to see American Hustle. Holding hands...

The universe continues to torture me

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I was planning to go to Kew gardens tomorrow to save my wasted, disastrous week off. I cannot bring myself to do go because one of their a...
Thursday, January 16, 2014

Why don't you love me

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The rant: "...I wonder, is this all one sided? Sigh. Too much bloody missing you..." The response: "...I'd happily...
Tuesday, January 07, 2014

It'll be sweater weather in Amman baby.

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'Cause it's too cold For you here and now So let me hold Both your hands in the holes of my sweater I'll get over you whe...
Sunday, January 05, 2014

Resolutions

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The 5th of January is my day of Resolutions. Career 1. Get MRCP by 2015. 2. 3 audits by July 2014 3. By August 2014 have a realistic l...