I've lost my stetoscope

and to be honest i have lost so much more today.

Im an idiot.
I hate it that i cant help it. My brain's quit, keeled over, quite dead. I'm still alive. I'd thought brain failure would cause instant death.

Instead it's slow. Painfully slow. As slowly as the smoke will cause cells in my lungs to go renegade suicide.

Hmmm.