i dont know what's wrong

im not sure what's wrong with me. Usually, i can identify what's screwing up my life and fix it. I cant identify now. Im swamped with loads of studying to do, and none of it is going in. Im not getting smarter, it's the exact opposite. I need help. Like a nice sit down with someone who can figure this out. Not someone i know, someone distant enough to be able to give impartial advice. Because this goes deep. I have to learn to let the hate go. I really have to.