Strangely calm, oddly unfocused

Im unfocused and distracted.
However, im oddly calm. There's that little fear and worry with the exams coming, but there's a big woolly and warm blanket of serenity on top of it all.

Having Des over was good. He always manages to amuse and inspire. My knees are still killing me from our hike across london. My throat is still raspy from all the ciggies.

Im worried because im calm. It's not me. I need to study more, but im distracted. I can't focus and do it. My mind wanders, i get sleepy....

Send well wishes, reiki help and pray for me. I need it.